Wednesday, August 7, 2019

Providence in Providence-Way Cool

O LORD that hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. - Psalm 139:1-2.

Did you know that God cares about every detail of your life? Literally He does. From the smallest thing, to the biggest thing and everything in between.  
Two days ago I had the most breathtaking experience with God. Like you I'm struggling with many different things, nobody has a perfect life. It doesn't matter where your at, nobody has a perfect life. 
And like who wants to have a perfect life anyway? Seriously. 
Anyway, I was spending time with God as one of the worst storms was hoovering over my city of Davenport. Shortly after the storm passed the most beautiful like ever double rainbow appeared in my backyard. I can't even begin to express what I felt experiencing this beyond vivid in colors, rainbow. I was literally out of breath. I could hardly breath. It will go down in history for me as the most beautiful awe struck experience 
I've had with God in the sky :) 

Then shortly after I read a devotional about Queen Esther.
- Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this? 
- Esther 4:14

I'm not saying the "rainbow" was about this, but it was a beautiful reminder that 
God is with me, like you and He is in control. He is Sovereign. 
He literally told the rainbow where to go, like for real. 
What does all this mean? Providence. Just like with Esther.

I Love what Dr. David Jeremiah wrote about Providence.  
The word providence refers to the foreseeing, guiding, protecting, and rearranging hand of God on the history of the world and on our personal lives. America's Founding Fathers leaned heavily on the doctrine of providence. According to several historians, George Washington's mother would read to him from Esther 4, emphasizing Mordecai's question to Esther: "Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?" Young Washington absorbed the understanding that God controls events, placing us where and when He wants. As his life unfolded, Washington spoke repeatedly of providence. He talked about the "favorable interposition" of God's providence, the "ordering of a kind of Providence, " and "the hand of Providence" that spared America as a nation. How remarkable that the same hand that guides the course of history also directs the circumstances of the lives of His children. Joseph was a man who yielded his life to the providential plan of God, and he became blessed and greatly used. God is in control of the tides of time; let Him also order the days of your life. A superintending Providence is ordering everything for the best- and, that in due time, all will end well. 
George Washington, in a letter dated October 27, 1777.

Amazing! 
Providence.

So will you yield to God's plan for you life? 
If it takes you away from God it isn't His plan for your life. 
Maybe this is your time to submit your will to the Lord's and accept 
Jesus as your Lord and Savior?

"Once you have been to the Cross, you will never be the same."
-Billy Graham

The choice is yours of course. God is so very good and He Loves you so much. 
Love will always be the answer. Jesus is the answer. Yes He is :)

I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth.
- 3 John 4

If you find yourself in prison or in the free world reading these words, just know that you can truly be free in Jesus no matter where your at. You might not have your freedom yet, but you are free in Him. 
Your circumstances don't dictate your freedom or if He is good, God is good period. 
Your Loved and I pray today is your day to turn to Him. 
And by the way, the rainbow was Providence and I live in Providence, 
way cool how God works. 

I'm still in awe.

Love goes on Forever. 
Love Never Fails.
- 1 Corinthians 13:8




Sunday, July 7, 2019

You Complete Me


Hey Guys, Trachena here! 
First let give props to the picture above that Amy Lynn made. Isn't it awesome? 
She is such an amazing artist among many things. 
I Love you Amy and thank you.
I think you beyond beautiful.  

"You Complete Me"
Don't you just Love that? Seriously? Like two puzzle pieces that just fit perfectly. Have you ever did a puzzle and your coming to the end and a piece is missing? It's like man, wow... now what? 
You have this beautiful puzzle with that one piece missing. How annoying

But what about your life? 
What completes you?
What defines you?

No matter how you answer that, the truth is the real truth only Jesus can complete you.
So that missing piece is Jesus. He alone will complete you. I know you guys are like come on, I thought you were going to say, a guy, a girl will complete me. It's him. It's her. Well maybe so, but that is after Jesus. I tell you the truth, nothing in this life will ever complete you but Christ alone. There is no boyfriend, no girlfriend, no spouse, kids, no amount of money, no career, not the next toy, no drug, like you get my point...nothing will ever satisfy you or complete you but Jesus. In my personal life I've learned this the hard way, many times I've tried to find my worth in people and things, yet it left me empty. I believe with my whole heart that you have to be complete in Jesus before you can even Love someone the way God wants you too. I Love this quote by C.S. Lewis, 
"You can't Love a fellow creature fully till you Love God."

You see when we surrender completely to Jesus, He changes us from the inside out. The things we once Loved or getting an empty fill on, we no longer desire. When Jesus comes in, so does Love. Like real Love. And He changes everything. The things you once did you begin to change and want to give Him all the glory. 
I understand we all want to be Loved. We all want that person to complete us but let Jesus do that first and then He will give you the one. 

I Believe in Jesus and I Believe in Love. 

And yes I do Believe there is that one person that can complete you but that is after Jesus. And make no mistake the one will Love Jesus too. But first Jesus ok? All He wants is your heart. Like fully surrendered to Him. Not 50/50, not just on Sunday's, nothing less than 100%. I promise you that if you surrender everything and hold nothing back, He will radically change your life. He will Love you like crazy. You don't have to have it all together, you can come just as you are. Literally your one step away 
from fully surrendering your life to Jesus. He wants to Love you. Promise. 
It is a Blessing in my life to Bless you with what I've learned, and to tell you the truth and this is truth...

Jesus is the WAY, the TRUTH and the LIFE.

"He died for you." 

Surrender by faith. 
The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through Love.
-Galatians 5:6

You are not alone, He is always with you. You are very important to God. He Loves you so much.
Oh How He Loves us.

Will you surrender? Let me know.





  


Friday, June 7, 2019

Love you Dad.


This is my Dad whom I Love.
I Love you Dad.
Although the miles are between us, the Love never ends.
Thank you for being my Dad.
Thank you for all the beautiful pictures you've taken of me.
I treasure you Dad.
I think your great.
I think your strong.
I think your courageous.
I think your a kid at heart.
I like it when you smile.
I like it when you look like you know something I don't.
I do treasure your wisdom.
But more than that, no matter what I Love you Dad. 
Thank you for you. 
Your beyond awesome!
Oh and Happy Father's Day!
Well, Dad's Day, Everyday.
And I honor you.


Happy Dad's Day Daddies.

Even if you didn't have a Dad, or one that is in Heaven, and everything else...
Honor them. 
Love them.
Pray for them.
God Loves that.

Love is a Kiss like a child.

Ex. 20:12
Honor your Father and your Mother.
Matt. 15:4
Honor your Father and Mother.





Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Remember Mom

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. 
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. 
Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. 
-Psalm 139:13-14

Happy May! 
Happy Mother's Day Mom and to all the Mom's out there.

I wanted to take this time specially because Mother's Day is Sunday, May 12th to honor my Mom. 

I Love you Mom.  

For many of you know that I lost my Mom unexpectedly on September 16, 2002. She had cancer. She didn't know she had cancer. The day before I got to spend the day with her shopping, having ice cream at Diary Queen and coffee at Dunkin Donuts. I dropped her back at her Surfside apartment on Miami Beach, hugged her goodbye through the window. As she walked away, I called out again, Mom...can you give me another hug? She walked back and gave me another hug and I kissed her. I drove off. The next morning I couldn't reach her nor her neighbors as they knocked on her door. I called the police. I couldn't get to her myself right away as I lived about an hour away maybe more with traffic. The police went in and found her in her bed dead. It was beyond compression, to the point of more anguish I had ever experienced in my life. Like how does this happen? Why God Why? The neighbors said she was planting flowers in her garden at like 2 am. She went inside, laid down and died. There was still dirt underneath her finger nails that told the story. But still she was gone. I share this not for tears, sorrow but just to say that if you still have your Mom alive, remember her. Love her. Hang out with her. If you are at odds with your Mom, do the right thing regardless and make things right. Life is to precious not to. Don't live life with regrets. It doesn't even have to be on Mother's Day, it could be right now. Pick up the phone and call her. You will wish you had should she suddenly die like mine did.  

I know there are many of you in prison right now that have lost your Mom's. I know you personally some of you. I know the pain is real, like really real during this time. I am with you in your pain. I Love you and I do care for you and your pain. Perhaps take the time to Bless another Mom in there and you also in the free world. 

If you don't have a Mom, be a Mom, or reach out to one and Love on them.

I pray in Jesus Name that during this holiday you will have peace, even though the struggle is real. I ask that God would comfort you in your lost and somehow, someway you would feel Loved. 
Dear Mom's, You are Loved. You are Beautiful. My hope is that even if you lost your Mom, or if your a Mom alone, that you know without a doubt that God Loves you. He created you a -masterpiece literally and totally wonderfully made, the Bible says so! 
So thank you for being you.

I Love taking pictures. I take pictures of anything. Even though I will never be able to take a picture of you again, Mom, I treasure all the memories in my heart 4-ever!

I Love you Mom.

May you be Blessed by the Lord, the Maker of Heaven and Earth.
- Psalm 115:15

Sunday, April 7, 2019

Love Is Jesus


He is despised and rejected by men, A man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him: He was despised, and we did not esteem Him. Surely He has borne our griefs And carried our sorrows: Yet we esteemed Him stricken, Smitten by God, and afflicted. But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him. And by His stripes we are healed. All we like sheep have gone astray; We have turned, every one, to his own way; And the Lord has laid on Him the iniquity of all. He was oppressed and He was afflicted, Yet He opened not His mouth; He was led as a lamb to the slaughter; And as a sheep before it's shearers is silent, So He opened not His mouth, He was taken from prison and from judgment, And who will declare His generation? For He was cut off from the land of the living; For the transgressions of My people He was stricken. And they made His grave with the wicked-But with the rich at His death, Because He had done no violence, Nor was any deceit in His mouth. Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise Him; He has put Him to grief. When you make His soul an offering for sin. Because He poured out His soul unto death, And He was numbered with the transgressors, And He bore the sin or many, And made intercession for the transgressors.  
- Isaiah 53:3-10, 12. 

Did you know that Jesus really does Love you? Did you know that Jesus Loves your face? Did you know that Jesus died for you? Did you know that even while you were still a sinner He really like really died for you? I'm sure you might think how that could be? I once thought that too. But Jesus really died for you. No matter how you feel, Jesus Loves you. It doesn't matter what you've done, or how you feel. You might find yourself in a prison cell or in the free world, it so doesn't matter, He Loves you just the same. Even when you feel words like these: depressed, sad, alone, help me, suicidal, tired, hurt, betrayed, insecure, ugly, fat, broken, angry, afraid, fearful, failure, shameful, scared, numb, sinking, useless, unwanted, damaged, misunderstood, sold out, burnt out, weary, worrying, abandoned, forgotten, not enough, rejected, grief, broken, lied about, and the list can go on and on! But every word you can think of that describes how you might be feeling, Jesus bore that for you. This is Love. Jesus Is Love. Jesus says, you are beautiful, beloved, blessed, valuable, treasured, cherished, sacred, accepted, lovely, His bride, you matter, incredible, unique, one of a kind, His poem, enough, complete, masterpiece, breathtaking, wonderfully made, fruitful, amazing, awesome, cool, and the list goes on and on! 

If you don't know Jesus or you have fallen away from Him, today is your day to come to Him. It's really simple. All you have to do is Believe in your heart, confess with your mouth that you, Believe He is the Son of God, that He died for your sin. Ask Him to forgive you of your sins, like truly repent of them, give it all to Him. Jesus I am a sinner, please forgive me. I want to turn away from my sin, I ask you to come into my heart and lead my life. I want to follow you. In your own words, just share your heart with Him. He Loves you and wants to have a relationship with you. I promise, if you really take a step of faith and believe, Jesus will come into your heart. 
And the cool thing, your eternity is settled, you will live in Heaven forever and ever. 

His banner over me is Love. - Song of Songs 2:4 
Say it! Believe it! Live it! 
You are outrageously Loved.
How Beautiful you are. - Song of Songs 4:1

Love Never Fails like Ever! Jesus Loves you.
Love Is Jesus.

Thursday, March 7, 2019

Your Loved Forever


YOU ARE ACCEPTED, NOT REJECTED.
- John 15:16

I want you to know that "Your Loved Forever". I don't know where you find yourself today, but I am here to tell you that You are Loved Forever, no matter what. So many things can come at us and we find ourselves in despair. But you need to know that God says you are... 
Accepted, Wonderfully Made, Forgiven, Loved, Blessed, Chosen, Cherished, Enough, Known, Strong, Delightful, Valuable, Beautiful and His Forever.

I recently went to a TobyMac Christian Concert in Tampa and like I Love all his songs. But one of the Artists "We Are Messengers" that he brought along with him sang one of my favorite songs called "Maybe It's Ok" The song is more than lyrics, it's truth. It is real. A lot of us have these huge walls up around our weakness when in reality letting them fall down and be vulnerable you are able to be truly free in Christ. No one is perfect. No one has the perfect life, like that isn't possible because we all fall short of God's glory. Today whether you are reading this from prison or the free world, please know that coming clean and being real makes you enough. We don't have to have it all together, but realness comes in being authentic, the real you. In realness we can willing share our struggles, laugh at ourselves, face fear, get back up when we fall, avoid gossip and just Love one another unconditionally. Your are Beloved, and I am thinking about you. Don't give up, miracles happen every day, like you are one of them...you are a miracle. Don't ever forget that! Ok, back to the song, I prayerfully hope these beautifully written lyrics touch your heart. 

If I didn't know what it hurt like to be broken
Then how would I know what it feels like to be whole
If I didn't know what it cost like to be rejected 
Then I wouldn't know that Your Love coming home
Maybe it's ok if I'm not ok
'Cause the One who holds the world is holding onto me
Maybe it's all right if I'm not all right
'Cause the One who holds the stars is holding my whole life
If I didn't know what it look like to be dirty
Then I wouldn't know what it feels like to be clean
And if all of my shame haven't drove me to hide in the shadows
Then I wouldn't know the beauty of being free
Father, let Your kingdom come, let Your will be done
Here in my heart as in Heaven
Maybe it's ok if I'm not ok
'Cause the One who holds the world is holding onto me
Maybe it's all right if I'm not all right
'Cause the One who holds the stars is holding my whole life
Now I'm alive in You
The best that I deserved
Now I'm alive and I can see You in everything
Maybe it's ok if I'm not ok

Mistakes help us learn.
Sin is a choice we deliberately make even though we know better.
Mistakes are done with innocence.
Sin comes from a heart that holds rebellion.
Mistakes lead to growth.
Sin leads to decay
- Holly Gerth

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him so that you may overflow with hope by the power of The Holy Spirit.
- Romans 15:13 

You are so awesome! 
So Smile...
Your Loved Forever.


Thursday, February 7, 2019

First Love


Happy February, with this being the "Love" month I thought it would be fitting to share with you the 
Love of Jesus. 
For God so Loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish by have eternal life. -John 3:16

I totally believe with all my heart that "before" we can have Love from another or give it to another we first need to receive it from the source of Love, which is God. God is Love. And He sent his Son Jesus for us. Once you receive Jesus Love and He becomes your "First Love" He will fill you with His Love and that is when we are able to give it to others. If you don't receive His Love first, you can't possibly Love another the way God wants you to. At best it's Love that is self-seeking at the core. We received Jesus by faith, like completely and so our Love for one another is the same. There is no agenda. There is no motive, it's pure. It's unconditional. Why? Because His Love is freely given, so we do the same. Your true identity is in Jesus, no one else. It's not in your spouse, boyfriend, girlfriend, pastor, mom, dad, kids, your job, your money, your weight, nothing but in Him. All you need is His Love. Sure, we all want that "True Love" that kind of Love that will Love you no matter what and never leave you, but unless it's Love that comes from God it's better to remain in His Love, because it's truly enough.  Please don't ever settle for anything less than God's best for you. When you fall in Love with Jesus and He is truly your first Love, He will let the right one come in and that right one will Love Jesus.  His life will reflect Jesus in all He does. 
He will be like King David, "A man after God's own heart."

Stay with God, take heart, don't quit, I'll say it again; stay with God. -Psalm 27:14
Is anything to hard for the Lord? -Genesis 18:14

Pray for your future spouse if you desire one. 
"Righteousness and peace kiss each other.
His mouth is most sweet, Yes he is altogether lovely, 
This is my Beloved And this is my friend. -Song of Solomon 5:16

I Love these lyrics from a song called 
"More" by Matthew West.

Take a look at the mountain 
Stretching a mile high
Take a look at the ocean
Far as your eye can see
And think of me
Take a look at the desert
Do you feel like a grain of sand?
I am with you wherever 
Where you go is where I am
And I'm always thinking of you
Take a look around your
I'm spelling it out one by one
I Love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mine and you shine for me too
I Love you
Yesterday
And today
And tomorrow
I'll say it again and again
I Love you more
Just a face in the city
Just a tear on a crowded street
But you are one in a million
And you belong to me
And I want you to know
I'm not letting go
Even when you come undone
I Love you more than the sun
And the stars that I taught how to shine
You are mind and you shine for me too
I Love you
Yesterday
And today
And tomorrow
I'll say it again and again
I Love you more
I Love you more
And I see you
And I made you
And I Love you more than you can imagine
More than you can fathom
I Love you more than the sun
And you shine for me

How beautiful! Just Love, Love, Love but first Love Jesus, and keep Him your First Love no matter what. 
God will give you the desires of your heart if you delight yourself in Him. -Psalm 37:4
Dreams DO come true. Why? Because only He could give such Love. Wait for it. True Love Waits.

"Love Never Fails in Jesus Name"