The year was 2008 and as I secretly prayed about things pressing on my heart for ministry and our marriage as Steve was heading to treatment for the second time. He went to Teen Challenge, which is an on fire Christian based center. While he was away I got closer and closer to God. During which God began showing me through many circumstances from speaking to my heart, to dreams, to people and things that were just not explainable what His plans were for us. I didn't say anything to Steve. After Steve got out we went to Idaho as seen in the picture above. He began sharing with me what he believed God was calling him to and that was to be a Pastor. I couldn't believe what he was saying because it was exactly what God showed me too during the time we were apart. God also showed me about serving on the streets to the homeless that Christmas Eve 2008 and loving on them through the Heart of Christ. Which as your know Surrender40 was birthed the following year in 2009. Steve was excited and he began by enrolling in Liberty University to get his degree in Biblical Studies and I decided to enroll too. Our Church was very supportive and actually offered for Steve to go to there school in Fort Lauderdale through Calvary yet Steve was working a full-time job and that wasn't possible.
We both finished schooling in 2010 and then he lost his job. We continued to serve on the streets feeding the homeless, we served in prisons and hospital outreaches. People even started calling him Pastor without even knowing he was in school. We used to say that he was a Pastor of a Church Without Walls.
From late 2010 to January of 2012 we suffered much tragedy. We basically lost everything but each other and our faith in God. Most of our suffering we wrote about in our book.
"It is doubtful whether God can use a man greatly, until first He wounds him deeply." A.W. Tozer
In 2012 God totally began restoring us. At which point we were led through church to move to Mobile, AL. We both believed this was God restoring what the enemy tried to steal. I won't go into the why's we didn't proceed, all I can say is that other opportunities came and that was the path taken. Today, Steve is suffering in many areas from trading in what I would say the altar for a tie. Now that isn't bad, he felt that was right at the time for us, but now he knows it's not. We do our best in living as transparent as possible so you don't make the same mistakes as us.
I am urged to no end to tell you DON'T DELAY when God calls you to do something. Many of you girls will be getting out soon and you will have so many things thrown at you. But please take the time to really fall in Love with Jesus and He will direct your path. Please surrender to that path, not what looks pretty or great, because it is usually in the things that we least would want to do is where He is calling you too. This might be moving to another state to serve in your church or to take a job at the Pizza place. Whatever it is, don't settle for God's second best, pursue with all your heart His first best. In closing I also implore you to first fall madly and crazy in love with Jesus before you pursue any relationships. When the time is right God will bring the right man in your life, one who is madly in love with Jesus and puts you second. It's not when a man loves a women, it's when a man loves God.
Steve and I are happy, yet we suffer in some areas from choices that we believe God is slowly fixing. I love him with all my heart, yet my first love remains Jesus. If Steve was writing this post he would tell you the same and possibly more deeply because him being the leader of the home has shed many tears from selecting second best.
I am thankful for us and his willingness to make wrongs right.
For I am confident of this, that He who began a good work in you
will continue to perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6
...let us run with endurance the race God has set before us
by keeping our eyes on Jesus. Hebrews 12:1b-2a
Much Love and Blessings